Cyberia Cafè

Blah!

2006-08-08T13:36:00.000-06:00

Mood: Indifferent
Music: 30 Seconds from Mars - Oblivion

I don't know.. I've thought about talking about this whole WW3 business but it's all very depressing. That and basicly everyone knows whats going on with it so it's not all that interesting to talk about. Anyway, I'm out.

*baafu* Amon

Lolicon

2006-05-11T15:54:00.000-06:00

Mood: Good
Music: Kotoko - Shooting Star
Midori no Hibi - Sentimental

Firstly, what is Lolicon?

Quote from Wikipedia: Lolicon is a Japanese slang term, short for Lolita Complex, used to refer to an attraction to any girl beneath the age of consent, or to an individual attracted to such a person. It is a term which encompasses both pedophilia and ephebophilia. As borrowed into the West, Lolicon means manga style sexual artwork involving child-like characters. Lolicon refers only to underage girls, see shotacon for the male equivalent.

It is also only drawn and the age of the character is most of the time up for dispute due to the fact that girls that look like they are 5 can have DD cup sizes in normal hentai. Now that you understand it, what are your thoughts? Many say it is just a gateway to having sex with real children but as a lolicon myself I BEG to differ. I have never even THOUGHT about doing anything to a kid, it's just sick to me and would hurt that child way too much. Lolicon however hurts noone and is just a fantasy in anime form.

It's not illegal in the U.S. but it is in Canada. What are your thoughts? Are we lolicon deranged individuals? Should it be illegal? Does ExtraDry Deodorant really work?

Keep this discussion civil, meaning no flames.

*baafu* Amon

Illegal Rights

2006-05-02T03:38:00.000-06:00

Mood: Normalized
Music: Nickelback - Too Bad
Static-X - So Cold
Onmyouza - Houyoku Tenshou
X-Japan - Rusty Nail

Illegal Aliens should be called by no other name but that. I've grown sick and tired of seeing the stupidity of the marches going on in Denver!

Thousands got out and marched acording to local news, most of which were illegal aliens who crossed the border and broke our laws but you already know that right? What you may not know are these facts:

There are 12 million illegals in the United States today.
They broke a law coming here illegally. (yes, this needs to be stated sadly.)
They have no respect for the sovernty of this country.
Many illegals beleive that by coming here in hordes they can retake California, New Mexico, and Texas.
More than half the people marching don't know English.
Mexican flags were the only flags being flown in marches before something was said and were replaced with American flags.
Both the Mexican and U.S. goverment do nothing to stop border crossing and in many cases promote it.

The list goes on but I'd rather talk to you. 12 million illegals are here because for years, in both Republican and Democrat administrations, nothing was done to stop it.. I suppose they thought the problem would go away if they prayed to the Immigration Fairy. However, while the people living here now are illegal I don't blame them near as much as the goverments that do nothing because the people just want a better life. Better life, we all want it right? Of course, but we do it legally and don't slap the faces of the people that do it legally while we demand special treatment from the authorities after doing something ILLEGAL.

The argument many illegals and supporters of them put up is that everyone was an immigrant at the beginning. Times change! If they didn't then we'd still have slavery and that's what we want, right? -rolls eyes- The laws were put in place as to not put a strain on our country from massive influxes and need to be either respected or we must let EVERY person who wants to live here come right in. Then what would we have? Nothing, this wouldn't be a great palce to live and things would go downhill from over population and having too many on welfare.

All that being said you may ask, "So what do we do about it NOW wise guy?". Got no answers but there are two things we CANNOT do.. give them amnesty and give them the boot but I'll tell you where we can start, goverment.

If our goverment, forget Mexico, OUR goverment steps up and uses the national guard to police the borders and completely stop illegal crossing of the border, then we can take a step back and figure things out. Until then I'd like a two things to stop.. these marches demanding the U.S. do what they say when we would be jailed in their countries for doing the same thing and the celebration of the Mexican independance holiday in our cities which is as stupid as the 4th of July in Great Brittain.

*baafu* Amon

Death Penalty

2006-04-03T15:18:00.000-06:00

Mood: Bored
Music: Flyleaf - Fully Alive
Eminem - Detroit City

Self proclaimed member of Al Queda, Zacarias Moussaoui's trial update was released today. He is eligible for the death penalty because he lied about September 11th and as the jury says, "He caused at least one death from his lies."

Now, maybe I'm missing something here but last I checked wasn't the death penalty for people who are actually murderers? This man, as scumy and shitty as he is hasn't killed a single soul to the knowledge of the United States. Yet, we want him to die. Why? Life in prison should be more than enough.

Look at it this way.. If you heard your brother was about to kill someone at the local supermarket but choose to do nothing, are you a murderer?? No, your sibling is. This is common sense for me but alot of people in their rage can't understand it.

Another point to make is he wanted to get on the plane and crash it into the White House which obviously would have killed himself. In his warped view of the Islamic religion that would take him to Heaven as a martyr with his 70 billion virgins or what have you. Now, what do you think killing him would do? Make him and his allies happy because he faught with the U.S. and became just what they all want.. a Martyr.

mar·tyr n. - One who makes great sacrifices or suffers much in order to further a belief, cause, or principle.

*baafu* Amon

What in the world?

2006-03-21T02:36:00.000-07:00

Mood: I'm not sure..
Music: Boa - Duvet
Tapping the Vien - Cornflake Girl
Bullet for my Valentine - All these things I hate

I'm really sick of the way things go in my life. Perhaps I'll explain this to you all..

When I was 6 my grandparents tried to steal my older brtoher and I away from my parents by falsely inprisioning them. I hate them. Alot. Yet, I've been forced to act like I love them and care what happens to them.. but I can't. My aunt, my grandmother's sister, fell and cracked open her skull. When I got the news, I didn't care. I just shruged it off, she lays in a bed these days telling us about the little girls that visit her. There are no little girls.

When I was in 5th grade my best friend Cody died, I didn't cry but when my parents told me his mom fell asleep at the wheel I faked being sad but truthfully I felt nothing. Is this normal? He was a good friend, Christian, taught me about life.. and like that *snaps fingers* he was gone, but I didn't care.

Alex, my good friend for 2 years.. the closest thing I had to a bestfriend since Cody. He stopped dealing with me because I wanted to talk to him more.. I couldn't understand what was going on but I didn't cry.. After he was out of my life I felt free for a few days.

Then, I met two new people.. Audrianna and Kevin. Audrianna was the girlfriend I broke up with.. I'm not sure why but I connected with her.. on my side but she never let me know anything and it fell apart. For once I felt close to someone and it was stripped away just because she likes some slut at her school.

I cried, then my heart froze and I have been having issues with all my online pen pals. I can't talk to them, all I do is play games, get off, eat a small ammount of fruit and goto bed.. only to continue the next day.

I know this isn't what I want but I have noone that I can talk to anymore. I feel almost like I'm depressed but I'm not. I get urges to sleep for hours just for the time of the world to pass by.

I feel ever so cold hearted.. like someone would have to use an ice pick to stab my heart.. that sort of feeling I geuss. Yet, it seems even worse now after Audrianna, than it was before I met her. Funny thing.. only time I cried when someone died was my cat Scooter years ago. I know better than to think that's normal.

Now that I've written that.. I can't find a reason for it or a point. Whatever.

*baafu* Amon

Been gone, back now.

2006-03-18T02:13:00.000-07:00

Mood: Chilling
Music: Eminem - White America
Lost Prophets - Faithless

First of all.. The hell is up viewers?!

Okay, now.. I'm been gone for awhile, I broke up with my girlfriend and frankly I just didn't handle it very well. No more being a drag, I'm going to get over this break up swiftly, move on, and learn from it.

1) Get over it swiftly, in progress.
2) Move on, not yet.
3) Learn from it, I had a bleedin' good teacher.

My last post I read back over and I realized something due to current events:
Iraq hates itself. Everytime they are about to have a goverment they argue but this time they have gone off the deep end and have started doing vile acts on par with what happened under Saddam Hussien's rule, smart eh?! Saying that then makes you think that maybe there was no point in this, they just do the same thing he did.

Let me further explain myself, we waged war with an entire country under the belief that all shared that they, indeed, were actively making WMDs. Also, that Saddam was evil and needed to be ousted.

No WMDs.
Thousands of new Saddams.
Complete rubbish!

This serves no purpose, however if it isn't for us being there Iran will stop rubbing thier hands together, actually take the country by force, control it by fear and murder. All the while having the power to back it up. Can you imagine it? This forms a new formula for myself and the readers of this blog:

Invade = Begin making new Government = Civil War = We are forced to leave or risk being in the middle of thier War = Iran crosses the border from the east and Syria from the North West, they take Iraq. Now this is where the formula is questioned.. If we come back to push back Iran we sink into a true WWIII, or plan B.. we leave them alone and Iran gets stronger while making Nukes. If plan B is followed Isreal nukes the three countries with strategic nuclear weapons that they bought from the United States. WE ARE BLAMED!

Two ridiculous paths but one must be chosen! The Never Ending War can at least change from the old boring formulas!! Which do you choose Bush? Choose now, it's coming!

Next week I will post something away from the issues of Iraq, unless of course nukes go off.

*baafu* Amon

The Neverending War.

2006-01-24T00:50:00.000-07:00

Mood: Meditative
Music: Blood - I Remember You (download)
Kagerou - Zetsubou ni Sayonara (download)
M.I.A. - Bucky Done Gun (english)

I've been doing some thinking on the current state of affairs in the Middle East and elsewhere.. tell me what you think.

You may have noticed the title of this entry is "The Neverending War", it's the name I have adopted for the War on Terror or WWIII. I call it this because of this formula:

Al Queda attacks = We attack = We hurt civilians = Families get mad and join fight against us = These new Terrorists attack us = We attack back.

This is an infinite loop that cannot be stopped; I say it can't because the U.S. policy is and always has been never surrender and only except just that from the enemy. As for Al Queda, they have no set leader, there are too many splinters for one man to say "We give", none of the cells would obey. Okay, so now you're looking at me and thinking "If we changed our policies and surrendered it would end".. *makes buzzer noise* WRONG! If we surrendered the mentality of Al Queda would say "They are weak! Strike now!" They attack and the never ending cycle starts once more.

How do we stop this cycle? Am I missing something? What do you think about this? Leave a comment.

*baafu* Amon

Rawr. I'm a tiger.

2005-12-05T05:00:00.000-07:00

Mood: Loved
Music: Due le Quartz - Rodeo (download)
Miyavi - Pop is Dead (download)
Switchfoot - Meant to Live (english)

As many of you might of geussed, I've been bummed out lately. Yea, you've suffered through my emo rantings, anti-social behavior, and accidental shyness.

Kiss that goodbye babay! I've met a new pack of hooligans. Guadelupe; although I don't speak with him anymore he taught me alot about different types of people. Katsu; j-rock fanatic, funny gay boy that sets hair on fire with candles. Sakura; visual kei nut, beautiful gothic lolita gal, and tells me, "daisuki Amon-sama!" (omg..). I have started dating her actually and that has helped to make me more of an upbeat man.. obviously.

For the first time since I created this wierd Blog / J-Rock Rotation.. I'm too happy to rant? Ja mata ne!

*baafu* Amon

P.S. This is a retyped version.. computer locked last time. <_<

6 topics and still runnin'.

2005-11-17T02:38:00.001-07:00

Mood: Flirty
Music: Kana - Chimame (download)

I have 6 topics to talk about. .

Androgenous Boys:
You know, it seems wierd to start talking about boys in a relatively serious blog. However, it's not; the first waves of Japanese culture have made their way to the United States, and among the many Yaoi animes and J-Rock; Americans have been noticing one thing -- These guys look damn feminine! It is many people's belief that the waves of Japanese culture will turn the next generation into a horde of Gay and Bisexual guys and gals. Why? For Guys: We look at these boys that look much like girls at first glace and get scared the first few times right? Then you get used to it and it turns funny, right? Well, that's where the next step is, actually starting to view these boys in a romantic light. For Girls: You will look at these boys, you know they are boys but most men can never be such pretty boys that you see in anime and J-Rock, so to get that, females will start looking at real life girls that resemble the boys they adore so much.

Just the way I see it, as a Bi-guy.

In God we Trust:
You know. . for the life of me I can't understand this. There is some blowhard suing to remove "In God We Trust" from dollar bills and coins. It's my thought that this is an anti-tradition movement sweeping through-out. This can be a good thing you know; acceptance of gays, perhaps not thinking we are the center of the world, and much less racism. However, along with this comes the bad of the anti-christian thing, can't say Merry Christmas? Can't display decorations of a National Holiday?? No Ten Commandment on Court Houses?! What the hell people! That's good tradition, that's what our Nation was born from, it's good to remember that and not try to forget history. It's unhealthy!

Drilling in Alaska:
Mainly Republicans are pushing for this; the drilling of oil in a National Park in Alaska. National Park. . with these words why do I need to explain why it's obviously moronic? If the Reps. got their way 1% of that park would be taken for drilling, which would disturb the wildlife and ruin that location for our grandchildren, and all this for a temporary fix for something that further hurts the planet! Instead of wasting parks on something that will dry up in 10 years and further polute our planet how about Hydrogen?! man-whores

This just in: If you disagree with drilling in Alaska you're Anti-American.

Senate to Vote on Iraq Withdrawl:
*puts hands together* Please God! Pfft, unlikely though. Either withdrawl or have a little progress! We've been sitting there on our asses for many, many months, making no progress while the terrorist sit there bombing us to Hell and back. Funny how the tides turn during the course of war, hm? Alas, we shall stay, get owned even further and more innocents and our men will die in vain. The culprits; Kool Aid drinkin' Republicans.

Torture in Iraqi Prisons:
I love how news agencies have been using this to their benefit. They say things like, "Torture in Iraqi prisons was uncovered", or what have you and fail to tell you it was Iraqi forces running the joint.

Lieing about Intelligence:
Innocent until proven guilty! We have seen no direct evidence that the President delibrately lied to the people in this; all evidence SO FAR has said that any evidence he got was also given to everyone else unedited. Until you can prove differently I urge you, Ladies and Gentlemen to be careful the way the use the word, 'Lie'.

*baafu* Amon

Le Pot.

2005-11-02T00:55:00.000-07:00

Mood: Lazy
Music: Gazette - Sugar Pain

First to le pot.

Denver, turning more liberal over the years has pasted a city law allowing the possession of 1 ounce or less of marijuana. Any more than 1 ounce it's illegal. Yet, while they can have it where do you think they get it from? The dealers are carrying more than 1 ounce on them so it's illegal for them to sell that but not illegal for the people to smoke it after they've bought it from the guy that's doing something ILLEGAL so they pass one law that makes an illegal act more rampant! Urg. .

No word yet on if they will be allowed to smoke it around others.

Well, anyway. . my halloween, could have gone better. Did absolutely nothing but eat candy and read Genshiken. Why? Well, I blame this on the fact I had no where to go. My friends were all off at parties that due to different reasons I wasn't allowed to goto. Reminds me of the Green Day song "Letterbomb":

Nobody likes you.
Everyone left you.
They're all out without you.
Having. . fun.

Jesus, this sounds pathetic! Blogger Out-

*baafu* Amon

'Goth' Murder backlash.

2005-10-20T18:49:00.000-06:00

Mood: Disappointed
Music: Avenged Sevenfold - Beast and the Harlot

MARTINEZ, Calif. — A 16-year-old male suspect was arrested in the slaying of famed criminal defense attorney Daniel Horowitz's wife, and a newspaper reported Thursday that he clubbed her to death with a piece of crown molding while looking for marijuana-growing equipment. - Fox News

All over the news they are talking about this woman whom was killed, if it was just that I wouldn't care. However, here comes to psycho dude.. and they start saying "He's part of the goth subculture!" and "He carved gothic symbols on her back!". Why say gothic? Why is that a big deal? When a 'regular' person, black, white, asian or whatever does this they don't point straight to this fact! So why is it done so much with the fashions of the world?

The labels most attacked are: Goth, Punk, and Emo. It happened after Columbine, every 'Goth', 'Emo', or person with a trenchcoat was hated! It's labeling, assuming what kind of person someone is simply by judging by the cover, as the saying goes. If a person dresses in dark clothing.. does this make them evil? No. If a person has a different style then you, does that make them below you? No. If a person looks depressed, does this SOMEHOW make them psycho?! No!

Yet, the news agencies will keep on labeling these guys, so everytime something like this happens, people around the world will hate 'goths', 'punks', and the 'emos' for at least 3 months. Thank you America and goodnight. idiots..

*baafu* Amon

These guys must be bored..

2005-10-17T02:48:00.000-06:00

Mood: Antsy
Music: Tane Tomoko - Message #9

After all this time of not updating.. I can only offer you this bit of orgasmic boresville news ..

My city, Loveland, Colorado must be home to the absolute most ignorant republicans in all the world.

Rule #1 - No scooters, for anyone, illegal. Yes, that's right .. if you want your big ass SUV, fine .. have your gas guzzler. Want your economic vespa? .. Tough shit you fat bastard.

Rule #2 - This lovely law was just passed to make it ILLEGAL to have four or more unrelated people live in one apartment, even if it has four bedrooms! Is this intelligent?! Of course not, but when has that ever stopped anyone eh? Just to explain .. this means alot of college students won't be able to afford college anymore and four bedroom apartments will go the way of the Dodo because my area is a college town. So ..

Who this helps: No one.
Who this hurts: Students and landlords.

To pass this kind of shit .. they have to be either exceedingly BORED with their jobs .. stupid, or think this is just so funny. Nobody's laughing.

Next week I will be addressing the labels of society, look forward to it!

*baafu* Amon

Racism and New Orleans!

2005-09-28T14:50:00.000-06:00

Mood: Sick
Music: PANIC*ch - Magical Dreamer

I am sick and tired (both literally and unliterally) of some in the african american population and others black and white around the globe claiming that the New Orleans levees were blown up to kill blacks because of racism! It's racist and hurtful for racical relations in North America to claim this bullshit without proof! Don't you people see this?!

Along with this is the unfounded accusation on President Bush that he delayed because of once again.. racism. I don't like the man, anyone who reads my blog knows this.. BUT! That doesn't mean that I will stand for unproven attacks.. because my friends, WHERE IS THE PROOF?? THERE IS NONE! It is perhaps unprovable unless it was written on a White House document in which case go get em' fellas. Until then it is just hate for the President fueling this. Shutup all of you until you know whats going on.

As for the damn levees! The news reporters, civilians, and goverment officals were all watching these things and cracks and seepage happened SLOWLY until it gave way. This was the case in both bloody hurricanes!! Those things which were claimed to hold up against Cat. 3 storms actually broke with Cat. 1-2 conditions! Such ignorance is intolerable people.

This is why I hated Memphis. *rubs temple*

In other news I have decided on the type of site that will be the predecessor of Anime-Asobi. It's going to be a J-rock only rotation site with requests based on what I have uploaded in the past. This will keep my work load to a minimum and bandwidth issues will be dealt with via RapidShare. It will be connected with this site so whatever layout my main site has this one will match it. I have yet to make a name for it but once I do I will start on getting the new domain and getting it running. I will not be keeping my affiliates as they are connected to anime music which will NOT be on my site.

Peace to all.

*baafu* Amon

Hard to deal with..

2005-09-22T15:13:00.000-06:00

Mood: Highly Upset
Music: Dir en Grey - CLEVER SLEAZOID

Close minded little fucks my parents are..

"I like to ponder things that are not welcomed in my family, so I will vent my ideas here, in Blog form."

I wasn't lieing when I wrote that into this webpage. I was just threatened to be kicked out of this house, cut off money wise, and disowned for ONE statement on how 3 million innocent people were killed in the Veitnam War and that I wish peace could be formed worldwide. A fact and a hope for the world as a whole! In response I got 8 things spewed at me with the most scathing voices and faces I've ever seen:

1) Kicked out of the house.
2) Cut off from their money.
3) Disowned never to be spoken to again.
4) I'm not a Christian.
5) Turned my back on America.
6) Socialist.
7) Communist.
8) Cry all you want it won't affect us.

All of this is to happen to me if I say any of those things again.. None of it even makes sense and while my mom was the one yelling this I pleaded for my father to help me and he ignored me. Somehow the yelling has stopped.. I'm down in my room praying for the answer as to how all this happened...

*baafu* Amon

Nan Desu Kan 05'!

2005-09-19T20:23:00.000-06:00

Mood: Reflective
Music: Mucc - Bouzenjishitsu

I'm back bitch.

and that.. was a TRUE CON! Ok, first day I get to Areku's house and I'm like sweet.. con-ness! Where on earth is Chris? Yea, he wanted to eat dinner at his house but never told us that until the dealers room had closed. y_y I near hated him til we met.

Next day we wake up nice and early and get to the dealer's room.. Stop Crying Lazoo! It was soo beautiful.. the warm light, j-rock background music, figurines and enough anime junk to make an otaku orgasmic.

Painted a cell and it looks horrendous, went to see the 'anime orchestra'.. they played 'Catch You Catch Me' and a bunch of other songs and after the first song they were actually good, watched Panyo Panyo Digi Charat, saw american voice acting and Chris played Inuyasha while cosplaying Cloud, witnessed both the Dragonball Z Budokai 3 and Guilty Gear X tournaments (wtf yes!), and of course purdy cosplayers. Hasu!

Thats only a few of the things, and I'm never gonna be able to list the stuff I bought! Over $200 USD worth just so you can understand my otakuness. I also met a couple of people I know there. Meggie (ninja girl) and Liz.. Alex was mean to the latter. (j/k man) I should kill him. Hrohuhuhu!

Liz didn't bother cosplaying cept for a cat collar that had a bell on it.. I just had to tap it a few times. Meggie however did! Lady from Devil May Cry, and pulled it off quite nicely by the way. (looking good ninja girl!)

Saturday night Chris and I kept Alex awake forcably with comments like "Maiyahi! Maiyaho! Numa Numa yay!", "*Bzzzzzzzzz*", and "You like ten year olds!". Worked until 3:30 when he told us to shut the fuck up. We did but he had to get up at 7 o'clock. Mission Accomplished! .. We are horrible friends. y_y

Anyhow.. before NDK I talked with Aya-chan and somehow, after I talked with her I redeveloped my passion for Japanese Culture, and when I say that I mean it all but the music in particular! That and the anime convention helped. So, thanks to Aya I am back into my luverly J-rock and J-pop!

Because of this, I have decided to revive my old site that yes.. goes under the name of Anime-Asobi.com!!

Why are you still here? Go! Go back home!
Cosplay photos will be in the Photo Album soon.

*baafu* Amon

Uwa.. what am I gonna do??

2005-09-15T17:26:00.000-06:00

Mood: Protective
Music: KOTOKO - Oboetete Li Yo

My grandparents are here now! Just drove 2000+ miles, cranky, and tired.

Where to start.. my grandpa.. Barry, or Papua as we call him. Thinks rock music, anime, punk stuff, and hating Bush.. is all EVIL. Not kidding, this guy is a decan at a Babtist church, hard liner republican, thinks disagreeing with a president is disrespectful, and thinks that wearing black makes you a gangsta.. no wait that last one was my other grandparents. My grandma, Betty, or Memaw as we call her. She is less of a tradtional freak than her husband, but she is a woman.. scantily clad anime girl poster = my early demise.

Inside of the Amon's mind..
The only thing that could be worse is if my cousins had come with them, I could've kissed my figurines and manga goodbye..

Now you might be thinking, if you don't play your music, don't punk out much, and hide your anime stuff, all will be fine.. WRONG.

And this is why:

Also, I'm going to an anime convention tomarrow, so even if he doesn't come in my room..

I'm screwed, I'm dead, he'll kill me..

*baafu* Amon

Wish it hadn't come to this..

2005-09-08T23:44:00.000-06:00

Mood: That wonderful kind of Ranting mood
Musc: Def Leppard - Love Bites

I can understand what Mr. Wonka here is thinking.

Americans are being spoiled brats! Perhaps you'd like to see what people around the world are paying for gas then you will shut your trap hole!

Netherlands - $6.48
Norway - $6.27
Italy - $5.96
United Kingdom - $5.79
Germany - $5.57
Japan - $4.24
and the United States was around $2.10 when this study was taken.. imagine now!! I've heard people saying it's up over 7 bucks in London. Stop complaining and live with it! In better news California's gas has gone down a whole nickel.

MORE UNFOUNDED ACCUSATIONS! *ahem*.. I'll explain. Turned on the news today and saw some black guy going on about how Bush hates blacks because of the shoot looters (only if they are carrying fucking fridges down the street) order that was given to the national guard and police in New Orleans.

Firstly, no looter has been shot to date.
Secondly, looter in the english language DOES NOT TRANSLATE TO BLACK PEOPLE.

God.. ignorance is rampant. Now, what Bush did do wrong is minor in comparision to what others have done during all this:

Mayor of New Orleans - Didn't give two shits about his people and left them in the Superdome where very little food and water was being stored for 95,000 people.. the storm moved at bloody 8 MPH and he just left them sitting in the Superdome??! He is the one greatest at fault here in my opinion.

Governor of Louisiana - She never called in National Guard from other places on stand by, one little state's Guard isn't going to do shit.. as she found out.

F.E.M.A. - Red Tape, Red Tape, and more Red Tape and where they need it they have none. Complete failure.

Homeland Security - Their plan obviously sucked noodles..

President Bush - After seeing that the state had fucked up before the storm hit he should have realized that noone was going to call for him to help, he was 24 hours late and had noone on standby. That and he didn't force the organizations he created to prepare for this.

The People - They didn't prepare at all.. I've heard reports of how they were preparing and it is as follows: Beer, watch the storm. All's good in the hood. Thank you dumbfucks! That's helpful!

The French - They built the damn place 7 feet below sea level! Also smart..

Shutup America.

*baafu* Amon

50mg of Zoloft on the Wall!

2005-09-08T01:07:00.000-06:00

Mood: Waiting
Music: Billy Idol - Dancing with Myself

Back from the doctor and haven't taken the pill he prescribed me yet. Zoloft, 50mg of the stuff.

You know what's a bitch though? The insurance told my parents that they had to buy the pills in 100mg and split them.. cheap little scumsuckers.. now I gotta break them apart!

Just took the pill.. left this entry untyped for 2 hours.

4 new pictures of myself, and good ones I'm told, are in the Photo Album.

Well.. not much else to say right now.. imagine that.

*baafu* Amon

Of Nightmares and Panic Attacks..

2005-09-06T01:48:00.000-06:00

Mood: Anxious
Music: Spineshank - Violent Moodswings

Can you sit for awhile and listen to my story..?

For over 4 years I have been trying to goto sleep you see.. I go and try relaxing and then something will happen that will chase sleep away violently. My chest feels like someone is standing on it, shake uncontrolably, my teeth chatter, muscles clinch, ball up and I will think I'm going to die.. This will happen to me if I try to sleep, think about anything remotely unpleasant, or try to meditate.

It's a horrible feeling and gets me about 2-3 hours of sleep a night. Friday night I near killed myself because I couldn't think straight, lack of sleep makes you hallucinate, and think crazy things.. about as close to insanity as you get! Pair this with nightmares over the last week and I can barely hang on..

I'm now taking sleeping pills but that only helps so much.. I still get them as I try for the point of unconciousness.. when I'm awake..

Do you think that in my position.. anti-depressants are okay?..

Thank you for listening..

*baafu* Amon

Ain't gonna be a Mardi Gras.

2005-08-31T17:14:00.000-06:00

Mood: Frustrated
Music: Ill Nino - If You Still Hate Me

Shutup you shutup no you shutup! Shh.. what's that sound? The wind..

Wind indeed.. and water. Lots of bloody water. Category 4 Katrina hit New Orleans and the surrounding area. Thousands feared dead, 80% of the city is under water that is nasty from sewage, 78,000 trapped in the city, and of course 95% of oil production in the Gulf has halted.

I think the looting is the sickest thing of all of this. Reporters have been watching people going into homes and walking over dead bodies to steal their things. It's worse than grave robbing..

You know whats seriously crazy though? Gangs of people in New Orleans walking the streets with AK-47s shooting people and the fact that police have instituted Martial Law. That means if your out after curfew and not being rescued. Your shot on sight.

Other than to follow the crowd of other bloggers why would I talk about this? I'm highly annoyed. If not for the fact that a shit load of our National Guard were off in Iraq; the rescue mission would be simple.. Whatever.

What I don't want to hear from any foreigner is that Global warming is all our fault and thats why we are getting hit like this. That we somehow are more responsible for it than any other large country! I've heard that bologna from our neighbors across the pond. Bite me.

*baafu* Amon

Who the flip is Amon? Part One.

2005-08-29T00:29:00.000-06:00

Mood: ..
Music: Adema - Freaking Out

Hi. My name is Preston. I'm a freak and a kleptomaniac. I sleep with my shrink, have republican parents and get my kicks from watching flipping old TV where cursing wasn't allowed, you spit. I listen to Air Supply and Ludacris because I think he's hot.. I also own pink sunglasses and a kilt. I'm a habitual liar and have a Breakfast Club poster on my wall. So obey me.

You don't like me! Now I'm so depressed.. I'm going to slit my wrist and kill the world. Then you will understand me!

Did you know that you could play the drums with one arm? So if you were on a desert island and had to eat your arm because it looked like bacon.. you could come back and play the drums with your ears!! While on the island you can also use coconuts as weapons against the natives. Bet they never thought of that. Like Charlie Brown did. Poor Snoopy.. So, anyway, I got curious .. what was in my girlfriend's huge purse?? Tampons and flare guns. Which brings me to this: Tampons are yummy, unless used, then you are just gay. Very gay.

Are cookies and oil a good reason to goto war? They taste like chocolate, keep that in mind. One last thing. As you reply to this, remember that kicking isn't for humans, but for your soccer ball named Fred. (bitch.)

*baafu* Amon

Glad to be back.. not really.

2005-08-24T18:57:00.000-06:00

Mood: Lonely
Music: A Perfect Circle - Imagine

I'm back from my trip to Florida, minus one family member.

My family feels so empty without my brother, he's doing what he likes in College now, he has his friends, his games. I am left lonely, I realize now that without him I feel completely alone.

Nothing much happened on my trip.. I got sick with a bad cold, my grandmother on my father's side thinks I'm in a gang because I dress diffrent from her ideal boy. My other grandparents seem to mock me behind their back like they do my mother (I've seen this). And visited my aunt who can't remember me due to brain damage.. all she does when I see her is hallucinate and cry.

This is nothing new to me so I don't know why I'm so depressed today. Ever felt yourself drift downwards under a unknown weight?.. I feel it.. I feel myself sinking down into a person I left behind. Back when I found this crazy thing called anime I was a full fledged goth, I was anti-social, bitter, and lashed out with a violent temper if I was bothered by anyone I didn't know. The japanese culture doesn't seem so bright to me anymore, the music I nearly hate, the anime I can't seem to consentrate on, and the want to start a new life in Japan has been fading. It's not enough now and I'm drifting back down into it.. I've mentioned these thoughts of mine to Alex.. maybe this is why he doesn't want to talk to me?..

I'm sorry for my emo ramblings, I know you probably didn't expect to hear me act like this..

P.S. New picture of me in the Photo Album.

*baafu* Amon

A question to you and my trip

2005-08-01T13:50:00.000-06:00

Many have told me that my statement on the morning after pill not being abortion was incorrect. I'm a man that takes advice, and excepts mistakes, but I want proof. Someone who understands how the pill works, please explain it.

Now that that's out of the way.. This coming Sunday I will be making a Trip from Denver, CO to Orlando, FL for my brother's move to college. He's going to Fullsail Gaming College.. maybe we will see his games on the market in the future, eh?

Will be gone 2 weeks, during that time I won't update my blog.

*baafu* Amon

America's stupid ass laws.

2005-07-28T14:39:00.000-06:00

Mood: Angry
Music: Smile Empty Soul - Bottom of a Bottle

I have two law's I'd like to address, both are INSANE.

First we say No! To birthcontrol with the Republicans. Then later we examine the law making it so doctors can choose not to serve someone because they are homosexual! (wtf?..)

On July 25, a U.S. House of Representatives committee held a hearing on whether pharmacies should be allowed to refuse to fill women’s prescriptions. Anti-choice Rep. Steve King (R-IA) told a witness, who had been denied birth control and emergency contraception by her pharmacist, that she had no “right” to her prescriptions - she only believed she did. Anti-choice Rep. Marilyn Musgrave (R-CO) told a witness whose prescription had also been rejected by a hostile pharmacist, that her “minor inconvenience” – that is, risking an unintended pregnancy – was nothing compared to the “conscience” of a pharmacist.

First of all, this is talking about the "Morning After Pill", a pill that is not abortion! I don't like abortion one bit but come on people.. to be frank after your condom breaks or whatever it takes a couple nights for the egg to be fertilized.

How retarded.. let's make it 99% stupider shall we?

Michigan Preparing To Let Doctors Refuse To Treat Gays

(Lansing, Michigan) Doctors or other health care providers could not be disciplined or sued if they refuse to treat gay patients under legislation passed Wednesday by the Michigan House.

The bill allows health care workers to refuse service to anyone on moral, ethical or religious grounds.

The Republican dominated House passed the measure as dozens of Catholics looked on from the gallery. The Michigan Catholic Conference, which pushed for the bills, hosted a legislative day for Catholics on Wednesday at the state Capitol.

The bills now go the Senate, which also is controlled by Republicans.

The Conscientious Objector Policy Act would allow health care providers to assert their objection within 24 hours of when they receive notice of a patient or procedure with which they don't agree. However, it would prohibit emergency treatment to be refused.

Three other three bills that could affect LGBT health care were also passed by the House Wednesday which would exempt a health insurer or health facility from providing or covering a health care procedure that violated ethical, moral or religious principles reflected in their bylaws or mission statement.

Opponents of the bills said they're worried they would allow providers to refuse service for any reason. For example, they said an emergency medical technicians could refuse to answer a call from the residence of gay couple because they don't approve of homosexuality.

Rep. Chris Kolb (D-Ann Arbor) the first openly gay legislator in Michigan, pointed out that while the legislation prohibits racial discrimination by health care providers, it doesn't ban discrimination based on a person's sexual orientation.

"Are you telling me that a health care provider can deny me medical treatment because of my sexual orientation? I hope not," he said.

"I think it's a terrible slippery slope upon which we embark," said Rep. Jack Minore (D-Flint) before voting against the bill.

Paul A. Long, vice president for public policy for the Michigan Catholic Conference, said the bills promote the constitutional right to religious freedom.

"Individual and institutional health care providers can and should maintain their mission and their services without compromising faith-based teaching," he said in a written statement.

Your gay? I see.. I'll have to ask you to leave. First time that happens to one of my friends I will kick the doctor so hard he will have a boot shaped ass for a WEEK! Next will be no emergency care, then Gays won't even be human. God, it makes me sick.

*baafu* Amon

1 part personal, 1 part political..

2005-07-26T01:54:00.000-06:00

.. cook on high until a golden rant.

-Political-

Start with the political since everyone knows you guys don't care about my personal life.

Ok, first of all To our Goverment: FUCK OFF! Imagine a goverment that can tell what the states have to do, what laws to pass, they can tell each state to do this or feel our wrath and the state goverment is taken over completely by Big National Goverment, and you'll have our Nation in a couple decades, or is it that way now??!

Bush does it with gay marriage, forcing states to pass laws on it and other things such as Child Sex Offenders. Now before you run and say I'm a pedophile or something like my mother tried on me (stupid Republicans..), hear me out. The goverment is saying they will put sanctions on that state if they don't pass the law, I have nothing against the law, lock the scumbags away, but our goverment forcing states to do that is wrong and unconstitutional.

That's not all! Gay Marriage, pass that law or Bush will ammend the constitution to make it a Federal Law, to not let them of course. I have no real stance on gay marriage but again, the goverment should let the people of those states decide. Okie dokie Bush??!

-Personal-

Now to the personal, aren't we all happy?

I've been dating a girl for about two weeks now and she had been acting just weird the entire time. Last night I finally asked her if she even wanted this relationship with me, she said you didn't know what she wanted. (WTF?) Started going out with me and she doesn't even know if she wanted a relationship from the beginning, lead me on and didn't even have the decency to tell me that she felt this way.

To make the immature bullshit keep pilling, I talked to her friend the same night and she said she had known and gave her advice to tell me nights ago because she thought she would hurt me if she waited. I had to ask HER. I have really bad luck in women or something.

Oh, by the way, pictures of myself, my bachelor pad, and friend Alex in my Photo Album.

*baafu* Amon

Last Weekend

2005-07-14T22:50:00.000-06:00

Hello people of blogger land! I forgot about updating after last weekend's fun.

Gomen. *bows 1000 times*

Anyway.. last weekend I went to my bud Alex's for the second time. (psst. his room was actually clean!) We started up off playing Street Fighter, a game that I had never played before but obviously, he was God at. 40 games into it, he had won 100% of the matches, that give you an idea of the ownage?

Then we watch anime till we dropped. Luckily, he didn't scream in his sleep again like the first time. That wasn't nice.

So next day we wake up at noon, noon damnit! Hell yeah! Though, I could have sworn his mom turned off the A/C sometime in the night, it was an infernal oven. Then we went to this wierd book/movie store and did geeky crap like look at art books, manga, anime, posters, and of course the "How to Draw Perky Girls" book.. or whatever it was called.

It was all great. Though, after meeting up with him in real life.. the funnest thing we have really done is have a few games of Tetris Next on PSone, was just fun to play him in something neither one of us were God-like at. Good competition right there.

I'll school him next time!!!

*baafu* Amon

Started my 4th with a bang.

2005-07-05T02:52:00.000-06:00

Woke up this morning to a few firecrackers next door, and then I remembered.. it's the 4th of July.

Nothing really happened the whole day, was completely bored playing games until my mother told me we are going to see fireworks in town! Ah, what a joy, in case you guys didn't know I know in a small town outside of Denver called Loveland.

Anyway, we got there and right as we were speculating about getting food before the show we got to the lake they were being shot off at.. or rather 2 blocks away in a traffic jam attempting to get to the lake where the show was being held. Needless to say food was out. I didn't even know this many people lived here!!

So the fireworks started, we sat there in our chair and SHOCKWAVE.. BAM!! They had these weird as hell fireworks which were like blinding, commercial, big ass firecrackers that JUST so happened to fly!! (yea, I hate firecrackers.. unless I'm throwing them at people's feet, then they're fun)

And then, double the pleasure, all the car alarms started going off after each, and every one of the damned things. Although, you had to find the humor in the fact that everytime someone had to turn them off. *giggles uncontrolably*

Twenty of those things go up at once to announce the start of the grand finale and whoosh, blue spots and ringing ears, but I did catch a woman yelling "HOLY SHIT!!" as she was walking down the sidewalk.

That was my night, I complain about those things but it all really was beautiful. Hope you all had a wonderful Independance Day!

*baafu* Amon

You want cookie?

2005-07-01T22:18:00.000-06:00

Ever get a fortune that really struck you as freaky? Well, while the chinese was bad, the fortune couldn't be more true. It reads, "You begin to appreciate how important it is to share your personal beliefs".

Typical fortune you say? Check this out, I just started this blog the day before last! More than a little strange I'd say.

The reason I started this blog was because my family members are ultra conservative republicans. I felt left out because I can't state my views while watching the news, or any other time without getting fussed at. I can only hope I receive better treatment here.

Geuss that's my first personal blog entry (other than the test posts which I need to delete), hope it was boring enough for you!

*baafu* Amon

Iran's Terrorist President?

2005-06-30T22:51:00.000-06:00

1979, Iranian radicals storm the U.S. Embassy in Iran and took 52 Americans hostage.

Iran has a new president elect, Mahmoud Ahmadinejad is being accused of being a terrorist already. (Gotta find the humor in this people) Five of the hostages from the 1979 incident are saying he looks just like a guard that was there.

Ok, rumor and can't be proved as of now, but you have to admit, there is a resemblance. This is all going on while President Bush is talking about Iran's nuclear program, which is up for debate seeing as how the whole Iraq WMDs thing was all a huge fuck up!

So, let's give Bush the benefit of the dout here -- Iran has a terrorist as President and an active nuclear program! Enough! The question is what will Bush do if this is all true? War? Don't make me laugh, we have the monstrosity of a problem in Iraq with no end in sight there.

I bet your wondering, where's your point? Right? Here it is: If we were attacked or pulled into a dire war right now, we wouldn't have the resources to fight it! We need an exit strategy. Hear me Bush!? None of this, "Timetables send the wrong message" bullshit either, it sends the wrong message to have 140,000 troops there like we do! That just breeds radicalism towards the U.S., never ending.

I leave this monster rant with this link, it is a rational way to get our troops home, save tax payers money, and regain our reputation in the world.

*baafu* Amon

Not a Free Nation?

2005-06-30T02:15:00.000-06:00

Is the U.S. a truely free nation? If it is then why are these things happening?

#1 -
The goverment can seize your property anytime they please now, be it for shopping malls, parks, highways, goverment sites, sell it to private organizations (the big source of outcry), even a porn shop if they saw fit. The only excuse they need is "It is more useful this way", and they run with it. Can anyone really stop them? Maybe, but it's damned hard.

#2 -
The goverment also wants to censor blogs like these, the very opidemy of free speech is what they want to censor, just as the Chinese goverment has. Do you realize what I just said? Just like the Chinese goverment has! Would I be mistaken if I said that free speech is one of our greatest civil liberties??

And finally my friends, if you want to tell Terrorists how to poison our milk supply via the New York Post, go right on ahead! Yippie! Urg! Fools!

Make up your own mind, is this country heading in such a direction or not?

*baafu* Amon